As far as I see...

I’m now in the middle of doing nothing.

And by nothing, I mean my academic journal, which is more like an undergraduate thesis, but way shorter.

And I’m bored. And I’m stuck behind the desk. And I’ve read almost all posts from buzzfeed, my current favorite website.
And I don’t know what I have to do now with my life. Don’t encourage me to see the better life I would have if I could finish my academic journal cause it isn’t gonna workkkghghghkqkqkq on mehhhwhwh.

Seriously, life no longer looked interesting to me at all............................ until about 10 minutes ago I googled the name I made in 2009 for my future daughter. (Oh yes, I do literally count my chickens before they are hatched). It brought a smile on my face cause its meaning is somewhat cool!
You know I’ve always wanted to name my daughter Leffie. Most of my friends said that it sounds like a dog’s name, but whatever.
I used to think it doesn't have any meaning since it's not that kind of name you can find in holy bibles. But this one somehow convinced me that I made a right decision to make Leffie as the name for my daughter.

"Someone who is really obsessive but fabulous and just loves indie & alternative bands while being really tall." (Urban Dict, 2009)

The name Leffie is actually Eiffel spelled backwards. I made that for the sake of my love to Eiffel tower. In my thought, I always see/imagine it as the most beautiful place in the whole world. Never been there but I know it really is beautiful. 

Well, that’s all I can blabber on about my future daughter’s name.

Now what?

Blah blah blah

Gak kerasa udah bulan November aja. Taun depan udah 2015. Taun depan gw lulus kuliah.
Emejink.
Lulus kuliah....
Buset gak kebayang banget gw pake toga abis itu udah... Kerja...
Gw gak pernah nyangka gw beneran udah mau lulus.
Sedih sih karena gw tau gw masih bego dan belum punya banyak temen.
Padahal pas masuk kuliah dulu janji sama diri sendiri kalo mau lulus harus pinter dulu.
Tapi jadi pinter tuh susah banget kenapa ya??? (Nanya begini aja bikin gw makin keliatan bego pfttt)
Btw gw akhirnya potong rambut lagiiii. Padahal pengen sekali-kali punya rambut panjang.
Tapi gerah banget. Tapi seneng juga karena akhirnya kalo ketemu temen "Ena rambutnya udah panjang aja". Biasanya kan "Ena rambutnya gak panjang-panjang".
Gw sebenernya bersyukur banget selama kuliah ini gw dapet tawaran ngajar dimana-mana.
Tapi kadang suka mikir sendiri, sebenernya gw bisa gak sih jadi guru?
Jadi ragu sendiri.
Kadang kalo ngeliat murid LBI gw ngelamun di kelas, gw suka sedih.
Gw yang gagal jadi guru atau mereka yang emang gak niat belajar ya?
Kadang kepikiran buat nyari kerjaan selain jadi guru.
Jadi apakek.